We settled in to read a book as normal. The Littlest Bunny in Alabama. At least I think that's the title. What wasn't per usual is I didn't let you nurse. I've been waiting for you to self wean but you're happy to find comfort from that. It helps you lull yourself to sleep.
You cried. I read. You'd hear certain words or see pictures on the book and your objections would subside momentarily.
It was breaking my heart. I thought I'd soon cry with you.
It's in those times I have to quiet my thoughts and try my best to silence what's going on around me and speak to Jesus.
You vegan to settle as the story concluded. But you weren't snuggly.
With some clarity and a heart full of love and hope I started to draw you closer. Nap times are made for snuggles. As I did, I began to cover you in kisses. You laughed and kissed back.
I think both our hearts were full. We realized we are on the same team and we love one another greatly. I'd smooch your neck and face and I'd get slobbery, tongue kisses in return. You'd laugh and say, "Moah. Moah." More and more kisses.
The crying lasted what seemed like an eternity was really maybe 5 minutes. You fell asleep in probably 20 minutes. And that's because I couldn't quit showering love on you.
My point is:
Trust your gut. Try your best to stay calm. Know your kid. And most importantly love your wee one. And make sure they know it all the time. Especially when it's a more difficult and maybe scary time for them.
I'm proud of you Will. Thank you for trusting me.
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